confessions of an emo-fuckshit

got an email from my EX (the not-so-good-lookin’-monster i told you) the other day. it was a brief message asking me how i’ve been. bullshit! how i have been?

a "how-have-you-been-doing" piece of bullshit to estimate the damage he had caused! it was like the president checking on the ruins left by typhoon Milenyo!

after all the traumas he’d caused me?? he thought i’d ever forget? huh! it has been a great deal of ass-frying efforts to let go of his haunting presence. then now.. after i have managed to put up myself again and move on with my life, he’d pay me an unwanted "pangangamusta?"

well, sorry for him coz i aint bloggin’ for pleasantries here. i would be very hypocrytical if i’d say that i hold no grudge against him. BUT… the existence of this ill-feeling does not mean the absence of forgiveness.

i may have had let go of the pain, but never will the marks of his abuses ceed to exist within me.

by the way, about the "let’s forgive and forget" quote… well, i think its a whole bunch of bullshit, sweetie. BOTTOM LINE IS: blueblink! keep yah fuckin’ ass off me!

*BLOG.i.forgive.you.but.i’ll.curse.you.forever!*jv

if i aint an asshole…

• i wouldn’t have flanked my nursing majors.
• i wouldn’t have withdrawn all my subjects this semester.
• i wouldn’t have spent my school days touring the mall.
• i wouldn’t have wasted my parents’ hard-earned thousands.
• i wouldn’t have involved myself in this kind of mess.
• i wouldn’t have thought of suicide.
• i wouldn’t have made my life this fuckin’ miserable.

but i am an asshole… what more can an asshole do than blog all her miseries in life? i am an asshole. i blog. and i’m miserable.

good thing though, i’m one happy asshole. and that’s one thing i have that makes me wanna live… i guess i should cross suicide out. coz an asshole never gives up on her life–no matter how miserable it could be…

*BLOG.no.regrets.but.in.a.lot.of.trouble*jv

i hate school.

i guess i’ve hated school all my life but managed to get along with it for several years. but now.. hai.. it has evolved from one thing i dread to a thing that causes me eternal torment and damnation!

ateneo de davao university + IS male substitute-professor + out-of-this-world-no-brainers-kekai-to-da-max-ASSmates + fuckin’ nonsensical fiestas + tuition fees that makes mothers and fathers result into raising hogs, cows and chickens for money to meet the ever escalating fee of "education" = eternal torment and damnantion to the power of N cubed

what a pity. a 665 score in CSAT did not guarantee me a ticket to quality education. where’s justice??? i  deserve more than the stupid looks on teachers not knowing what to discuss. i deserve a school that does not cater to morons that degrade the school with remarks like this being broadcasted in PUVs: "etz so hirap talaga the quiz noh?? ahai.. i had to open my notes pa nga to answer! gosh etz so hirap talaga! Swear!" GOSH! THEY ARE SO KEKAI TALAGA! AZ EN! I WANNA MAKE SAKAL THEIR THROATS NA NGA WEH! *evil laugh* and most of all, i deserve a school that feeds me information, not a school that feeds on my parents’ box of wealth.

i guess  better make lipat na talaga! hahahaha

*BLOG.save.me.from.the.fires.of.hell*jv

i ain’t in the mood to write.

*BLOG.i.am.shutting.up*jv